Friday, December 5, 2008

Accepting A Blessing

Was talking to my gf tonight. She wanted to go out shopping, but Wolf wasn't home yet...and I told her I've got my BIL coming, and desperately needed to clean the house.

She offered to help.

I immediately turned her down.

She offered again, more insistantly.

I faced facts. I needed help. I can't do what I used to. I just can't. I have company coming, and the house, while not ready to be condemned was far below even my admittedly non OCD standards.

I accepted her offer.

Its a weird mixed bag of emotions. On one hand, its MY mess, damn it. My family. My responsibility. Having a FRIEND see it at its worst was a blow to my pride and ego, let alone accepting an offer to help clean it.

On the other incredibly lucky I am to have such a friend that comes over and pitches in, whole heartedly. When I pushed too far and simply had to give in and sit at the table fighting not to cry from hurting, she chatted away, cleaning my stovetop, making it seem like the most natural thing in the world that I should be sitting down watching while she cleaned my kitchen.

I was truly blessed this evening.

Many thanks to you. You know who you are, and you are much loved for what you did. I'm not graceful with words, in person, but I know that you'll read this and understand that I could say here what I couldn't tonight.

Thank you.


Iva said...

I love when God puts such wonderful people in our lives, don't you?

And I am so thankful that you have a in real life friend to help you - especially when those of us online can't.

Domestic Goddess said...

Thanks, Iva.

K is something special. I can't begin to explain the kind of person she is, other than to say she has so many qualities that I strive to develop in myself.

Iva said...

The best friends are the ones that make us better versions of ourselves.

Jane! said...

Just imagine if your circumstances were switched. You would be just as eager to help her out. I totally know where you are coming from, though. Friends are fantastic!
Yep, I'm fine. Just buried with must-dos. I hope things are looking up for you and you can enjoy your company. Trust me they won't be looking at your dust... and if they do? Hand them a dustrag! :o)

Linda said...

In total agreeance with the other comments. Blessings♥