Here I Go Again...

*sigh*

Wouldn't it be nice if I could pick something and just bloody well stick with it? God knows that Wolf would be overjoyed if I could, lmao!

Writing. Here I go again. I picked up a free copy of Writers Guide 2005 from a fellow homeschooler and freecycler. (Or rather, Wolf did on my behalf). I've been totally off my game in every creative pursuit. Haven't done a new design for my shop in God knows when, probably close to a year. Signed up for NaNoWriMo again this year, didn't write a single freaking word. Something about being disabled, chronic pain, and a wee bit depressed as a result has sucked all the creativity out of me. Add on to that my always present fear of success, and its a sloth inducing stew of crapola.

BUT...enough is enough, dontcha think?

So, I've set myself some goals. I need to get off my butt and actually work this writing thing. Maybe it'll be successful, maybe it won't, but bloody Hades, its time to honestly work it. I'm tired of the what ifs, the maybes, the fears and hesitations. I'm talking myself into the business headspace of it. Look at it as a business gig, not a personal emotionally invested "they hate me, I'm not good enough, who do I think I am to even submit to a publisher, I suck and am unworthy and even if they did accept something, they'd want more, and of course it would only be a fluke the first time" mindspace. (Thanks Spawn, for that.)

First order of biz...Short story contest, deadline Jan 30. 6000 words or less. Allowed to submit more than once.

Pray, vibe, whatever you will, I'd appreciate it.

Momma needs a new career, cause health care just aint ever gonna happen.