Updating

Thank you to Jane and Sam for your support!

The good news is that it has taken the edge off the arm, so on that basis, a repeat is likely. Yay!

Bad news is there's something going on with my right eye. RN before the procedure noted that the pupil in my rt eye is dilated more than my left. Apparently pupil dilation is part of the sympathetic nervous system...what I'm wondering is if its from my migraines, or maybe what's causing them.

Also, the droopy eye thing was a lot worse than the first time, and red as heck. Felt like I've got vinegar and sand in my eyes. My tears actually hurt.

So, I'm really freaked out about the eye issue. Specialist is off on vacation til the New Year, so I'll go see my GP next week. I'm worried about potential damage to the eye...Last thing I need is to be the one eyed one armed flying purple...errr...you know what I mean.

Tie Breaker Time

I promise, I'll blog soon about the general insanity inhabiting the Stepford house, but for now, this is where I'm at.

I have my 3rd block tomorrow, be at the hospital for 630 am.

First was successful, in that I had some reduction in pain.
Second was completely unsuccessful.
So, this is the tie breaker. If it works this go 'round, we'll go again...if it doesn't...that's it, end of the line, everyone off.

Specialist is talking more narcotics...including methadone

I'm really not wanting to start down that particular level of hell, tyvm. Being a stoned zombie, incapable of parenting doesn't seem like an option to me. But when its bad, I'd take anything shoved my way. Not a great place to be.

Hoping that this works, even just the tiniest amount. I so don't want to be on narcotics. Really really really don't. Both my maternal grandparents were/are alcoholics and the addiction potential scares the living crap out of me. I've been told, repeatedly, that 'you can't be an addict when you're needing the meds for pain management, its only if you're taking them without cause...' But that doesn't make much sense to me. Your body gets dependant, the reasons why don't matter.

I can't be stoned outta my gourd and be a wife and mother. I won't do that to my family.

Pray, vibe, whatever you've got that this shows some positive results...cause the options suck.

Ganglion Block, CRPS Spreading...

Ok, gonna keep this short. Forget sweet.

Ganglion block was successful, in that it did alleviate some of the pain in my right arm/hand.

It took away enough pain for me to feel the spread of CRPS in my left.

Specialist I saw today can't officially dx the spread, as it isn't turning colour yet, but the sensations are the same.

woo.

Tomorrow, 7am

Ganglion block is tomorrow at 7am. I don't want to go, I don't want to get a needle in the neck...I don't want to take this last bet yet.

And that's exactly what this is. This is the last chance for any sort of pain relief, recovery, the whole shebang.

All riding on tomorrow.

For someone that's had every potential possibility not do squat, who has negative results with anestetic, I'm more than a little freaked.

*sips a rye and coke*

Thankfully, a liberal application of...nummy drink goodness is calming me down. Yeah, 'calming', thats it. :oP

Hey, I figure if they kill me off tomorrow, at least I'll have had a good night before, right?

And yeah, its unlikely they'll kill me. Whole boatload of stuff that COULD go wrong, and dying is on the list, but thats a bit more unlikely than ending up with right sided paralysis.

Woo.

I need more rye, and to quit trying to look at the positive side of life.